The shock was really hard to take in. In school we have been reading loads about vulnerable children and the horrible conditions they are subjected to. I have been blowing through the readings, because I refused to put a face to any of these children or their situations.

Tonight at dinner all those children started having faces and started being friends daughters, co-workers children, my cousins baby girl... I got so angry I went quiet.

How could God let this happen? I mean seriously??? I know the textbook answer is that God doesn't want hurt to happen, that its just a result of a broken world... but for some reason when young girls I know are getting raped, that answer doesn't measure up.

I am so angry that it hurts, I'm so sad that i makes me mad, I'm so annoyed that it makes me cry.

I can't answer this one. Praying a bit earlier I get that the emotions I am feeling are shallow in comparison to what God feels for his hurting children... but why the eff is there still so much pain? i feel like the world is spinning out of control and there is no one strong enough or gentle enough to stop it in a way that will leave any of us as survivors...

Is there any sanity in this messed up world????