A Living Inspiration!

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So if you haven't figured it out... I believe prayer changes things. Big things and small things. I think a lot lately I pray for small things. personal comforts, weather, awkward moments, the nature of my overwhelmingly normal life and existence ... But a few days ago I was reminded that as much as prayer is about having those every day conversations with God about life, love and happiness. It is also something that I do when big things... and I mean BIG SCARY things are out of my control and I need God in his wisdom and mercy to intercede and change the course of a physical reality.

When I first moved to England I got involved with a team of young people who were in love with Jesus and put Him as a priority in life. We spent sooo many  late nights praying in prayer rooms, drinking cups of tea while we fought out what church is and often challenging each other to game of less than enormous feats (who can do the most push ups, dance offs, trying to balance a tennis ball on someone unused crutches!!).

In that group was a young lad named James. He was only 18 when I met him, but often acted more like a 30 year old man trapped in a teenagers body. He always had us in fits of laughter from the "games" he would get everyone to play. He had a lovely voice and every now and again we could get him to sing a song or two and people loved it! He was always up for weird grand adventures and the number of "walks" we all went on were fabulous. Not to mention he had an unforgettable head full of curly golden locks.

As a team of people (and more so as a group of friends) we talked of hopes, dreams and the long lives we would all live pursing God, trying to do good in this world and creating opportunities for others to do the same. We were all too young to know any better and too old not to.

After that year we all have gone on to do such different things. Some moved back to their homes, some went on to jobs, other back to education, others into full time mission, some even married each other (wink wink!).

A few months back we got word that my friend James wasn't doing so well. He was living in Ibiza volunteering to help pick up clubbers and partiers off the streets to be the actual hands and feet of Jesus when he started getting sick and had pain in his chest.

To make a long story a bit shorter one of the people that has inspired me most in my faith has cancer... really scary cancer that could steal his life away... and its not ok with me.

His family also believe in God and prayer and the hope of living life. They wrote this incredible prayer and have asked their friends and family to be praying this over the next month to believe that a miracle can happen and James' physical body and life here on earth can be long and healthy.

If you know James or if you want to join in praying this prayer with his family and friends then Please join us for the next month in praying this every day and believing that through prayer change with come. If nothing else be inspired that a family in probably one of the most scary times of life have a relationship with God so deep that they can write something like this:


Our prayer for James

We pray for James and stand in unity for his complete healing, believing that “his body will glow with health, his very bones vibrate with life!” (Prov 3:5-6 The Message)

We thank you for James and the gift that he is to our family.  Thank you that this cancer was discovered and treated quickly, that the tumor has reduced in size, and that James is free of pain and able to sleep.  We thank you he has avoided infections, complications, and has been able to attend all treatment appointments.  Thank you for the fantastic care of medical staff and free access to treatment.  We thank you that James is gaining weight and is beginning to feel stronger.  We thank you for your love and care Lord, and for the many who join us in prayer, encouraging us and him to keep going.

We pray that today you will fill James with strength, encourage him, and lift up his heart, mind, emotions and spirit.  May he know physical health and strength,

We want you to protect him today, Lord.  And so we pray protect his heart and lungs, and everything that the tumor touches in his chest.  Protect all of his vital organs from Chemotherapy and drugs – his liver; kidneys; stomach; bowels; his reproductive organs; his veins and arteries.  Keep James from infection and complications, may his bloods be good, and may nothing interfere with his treatment programme.  We pray you will protect his emotions and mental health – granting him a sound mind, with confidence and trust in you Lord.  Be James’ strong tower, his shield and defence, his rock and foundation, his hope and salvation.

We agree and pray in unity that you would completely heal James of this tumor.  That those cancer cells would rapidly die, with the tumor shrinking completely and disappearing.  May the primary source be gone, never to return again.  We pray the remaining small nodule in James’ lung will disappear and any further secondary signs of cancer to be completely healed.  May everything this cancer touches in his body be protected and healed.  May cancer be eradicated from his body!  We pray there will be no trace of cancer or chemo treatment in his body and that James will return to full and complete health – living cancer free for the rest of his life.

We pray that the hopes and aspirations James has will come about;

  • May he find a great wife and be married
  • May James’ reproductive system be protected and may they have children
  • May he pursue his chosen career and serve you fully Lord
  • May he live cancer free for 5 years, and then beyond
  • May his voice return so he can sing

We also pray that in and through this situation you will be glorified in our lives.  For those in our family and close to us who do not know you – strengthen them, and reveal your love to them that they may know and trust you Lord.  For us Lord – forgive our fears, doubts and unbelief.  Lord increase our faith so we may trust you and stay close to you.  Speak to this storm and bring us through.

May nothing interrupt the good plans and purpose you have for James’ life.  May he live to an old age.  May his body glow with health, and his bones vibrate with life.  May you bless him today Lord.

Amen!



can you still "pioneer" church? I don't think so!

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I read a lot of books about how to 'plant', 'build', 'be' or 'pioneer' church. I don't think I like it. I am getting really fed up with people telling me or reading about how to 'pioneer' the church... I think that makes about as much sense as someone buying a horse, wagon and compass and telling me they are going to Pioneer the wild west of America.... I want to look at them with dumb-founded eyes and be like "That was so 300 years ago! You do realize thriving cities and urban spaces now claim what you are imagining as the wild west of America? Hang up your Pioneer reigns ... that profession doesn't exist anymore!"

Stop telling me to pioneer the church on my estate. That doesn't work. Stop telling me to be missional. That doesn't work! Stop telling me to be an organic church. That sooo doesn't work.

I don't know what does, but I'm kinda tired of buying into "movements" to make a difference. I love Jesus. I don't go to church on sunday. I love the bible. I wont tell every person I meet about Jesus. I love praying. I wont scream pray in public. I meet my neighbors because I'm called to show them love. I wont save them. I care deeply about righting the wrongs going on in this world. I can't make people care about a man that lived 2,000+ years ago... He is going to have to do that.

I'm not the first to realize this... I'm not the first to do it in this place... I'm not a pioneer! And I can never be one here on this estate in England. (Anyone than a cowboy can buy a horse and wagon and go pioneer the wild west of America... those days are soooo OVER!)

So from here on out... I'm gunna get on with my every day normal life. I'm not going to over-dramatize it or make it sound cooler than it really is. I'm going to count it all joy... especially those crazy awesome moments when Jesus shows up in the little things and makes me see how real he is and makes a difference in the lives of the people I love.

If church forms because of that... awesome... but I don't think you can be pioneers in the UK ... this land... these people... they have heard about Jesus. People already have come to this land as the first people bringing a new idea or claiming a new area... we can't keep doing it...

I'm like that black ops team... you know on those crazy xbox games that I can't even play... the team that goes in after the city was settled, after the leaders were elected, the streets were settled, the conflict started, the war build up, the hatred reigned, the indifference set in... I am on that team of people that has moved into the neighborhood to see if there is any life left...

To see if we can find Survivors!! ... Rescuers if you will... which means that we play the game by a different set of rules and with a different objectives, but the same end goal.




It all Started with a Love Story

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We are celebrating advent together as a community by doing this thing called the Jesse Tree. Today steve and I sat snuggled up on our couch with the Christmas lights twinkling remembering that the Christmas began as a love story.

The Jesse Tree took us back to the very beginning and reminded us that our creator God said "Let US make man"... our advent author referenced it as 'the great huddle of hearts'... how three beings (Father God, Son Jesus and Holy spirit) came together in love and imagined all of creations. Imagine all of me, all of steve and all of YOU!

It also reminded us that it was in love that we were made and created in the image of God ... which is love.

It is exciting and beautiful to realize how loving and perfect everything was in those first moments of creations. What was that like?

I then played steve this new song I just got. We sat listening to the song inspired by the story of creations. Its screams out let there be light! reminding us even more how God loves to make something in the mist of nothing. To bring light in spite of the dark... hope in the mist of despair. Getting so excited to unwrap more of this story of Jesus!!

bottom line

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I know there are loads of reasons why people go on and on and on about the importance of having a relationship with God and putting Him as a top priority in their life.

***Because we should do go, for the children, because it what our mothers made us do, because nice people go to church, its good for us***

But last night as I took part in our community's night of prayer, these words washed over me completely in a fresh way. How much my heart said these words to and about my father, friend and rescuer- God...


He is jealous for me 
Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree 
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy 
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory 
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me. 
Oh, how He loves us so 
Oh, how He loves us 
How He loves us so. 

Yeah, He loves us 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves. 

So we are His portion and He is our prize, 
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes 
If grace is an ocean we're all sinking

So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest 
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way 


That he loves us, 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He loves us 
Woah, how He love
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[Speaking]
His presence, his love is so thick and tangable in this room tonight
And there are some of you in here that have not encountered the love of God
And tonight God wants to encounter you and wants you to feel his love
His amazing love, without it these are just songs, these are just words, these are just instruments
Without the love of God, its, it's just like we're just up here just making noise
But the love of God changes us, and we're never the same
We're never the same after we encounter the love of God
We're never the same after we encounter the love of God
And right now if you haven't encountered the love of God
And you would know because you wouldn't be the same
You would never be the same again
And if you, if you want to encounter the love of God right now
You better just brace yourself, because he's about to just blow in this place
And we're gonna encounter the love of God right now
So God I speak to all the hearts and I ask God that every heart be open right now, every heart be open, every spirit be opened up to you God
To you and love encounter, a love ancounter from you tonight
A love encounter from you tonight God

(How He Loves Us - Kim Walker)

At the end of the day I love and do what I do because God loves me so extremely much. I am compelled by the love that I experience through him to share it through this world and help others know how desperately God loves them. Recognition of the greatest love of all makes you react in a way that is different from any other love you experience. 






cheese making just around the corner!

Posted by Teen Bean

well its official. I am in the process of meeting up with an 'age-old' cheese maker. There is a 'commune' or 'community' in this place called East Bergholt, Old Hall Community. My hubby went there a few months ago for a poetry event and I got to mix and mingle with some of the people and found out they make cheese!!! I even met the woman who is part of the cheese making process and she invited me to come back out and she would show me how to do it.

Its like the most wonderful dream come true. I've been reading about the cheese making processes lately and love the mixture of my two favorite things: Science and Food. I couldn't be in a happier place.

The hard part is organizing my crazy schedule with work and there being enough milk at the commune! (HA! I never thought I would say that!) But I feel something big is about to go down! I'd determined to use this passion to bring good into this world!!





What's your vision??

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What if someone asked you what your vision for life was? How about the community that you live in? I was asked this recently and was shocked that all that came out of my mouth for a few seconds was "uhhh uhhh uhhh...." followed by the deafening silence of my brain working double time to think of something really witty and charming to say.

Why can't I be that person that just comes up with the catchy slogans and says, "there you go, this is the vision for my life"...

Then the more I thought about it the bigger and bigger that word VISION become... and the more complicated it was to understand.

In a matter of moments I felt like I couldn't even say the word vision let alone understand its definition and then apply it to my life and then the community I live in.

***DEEP BREATH***

After a few moments I asked myself what I thought vision meant. This resulted in me thinking "a vision is the best of what we hope for, right?"

That seemed to satisfy me enough to consider my life and community vision for a few hours. But again this morning I woke up with that pounding question... "What is my life vision?".

This time I decided to trust the internet to give me a proper definition:

vi-sion {vizh-uhn}:
noun
1. the act or power of sensing with the eyes; sight
2. the act or power of anticipating that which will or may come to be
3. a vivid, imaginative conception or anticipation

This got me to thinking. I think a life vision is best defined by taking what you see around you with your eyes and then applying what you vividly anticipate with your heart into that situation.

I used to think coming up with a life vision was about removing yourself from your currant normal situation and thinking of this intensely far away and almost unreachable reality and letting that dictate what you live for. But that isn't vision that is fantasy. A vision is about realizing that the life we live is here and now and also hopeful for a future... having a vision is about having hope for more!

So, are we living up to our potential to be hopeful?... Are we challenging ourselves to see and anticipate? Do you ever take the time to see what is going on around you and then apply the deepest yearnings of your heart into those situations and then strive with everything you've got to catch your life vision... to hope for more?

Don't live your life blindly like I was! Open the eyes of your heart and see what you are really living for... you might have to dig deeper then you thought and brush past a lot of surface crap like I did... but keep it up non-the-less because the more you define the vision you have for you life... the more clearly and fully you can make this journey of life and the more you will understand the purpose for you life!

A Kiss Towards = Worship

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I know in todays world there is loads of things to worship... pop stars, diets, actors, job, book series, money!!


Today I woke up with the sun splashing into our apartment and thought "wow what an amazing day to worship God".... it set me in a good mood right from the start. The as I pulled on an old raggy top and headed into the kitchen I was even more grateful that my worship doesn't start in a church building or even that slightly awkward singy-song time of a church service that some of us love and hate at the same time. 

It started as I began cooking the food for our community meal for my friends, family and neighbors to share today as we all gather to remember how awesome the Creator of the universe and Father God is. 

I laughed and asked, "Steve what is worship? I feel like I'm doing it right now... but I'm not singing or in a church?" 

Steve was hanging up the latest poster from his poetry gig on our memory wall and said "Worship means 'a kiss towards' or 'adoration'... it about showing appreciation..." (ahhh steve always knows everything! wink wink!)

I laughed and was like "ohhh right that is why this feels like worship!" I continued smiling to myself because I love the way we get to be the church on this estate. Its not about meetings or judgement or rules... its about relationship. 

Our world has tried to take the precious word of 'worship' and make it this cold and distant thing by using it to say "we worship money, items, fame etc" when really worship is very relational and personal thing... its a word used to describe the most personal and real relationship we humans can experience... the relationship between us and our heavenly father and creator!

And God asked us to use the way we worship him or show him our love to bless him AND others! 

So in the same way that I show people love (through telling them, making them food, hanging out with them, being kind, being generous, having a cup of tea). God wants us to show him love in those same ways, but he is even cooler than people because he says that when we do these things for him, BUT with other... it shows Him the deepest love of all!

So I am happy to worship God today... starting now in my kitchen... and continueing into this afternoon as I gather with other people that love God and we share a meal together and show God we love him enough to care for each other and him!

Join me some time... its awesome!